So, first blog post. Quite a lot of pressure on this one so I figured I’d write it up quickly before my mind actually figures out how scary this is.
So, before we get into my main writing today, a little background reading is needed to understand my thoughts on this subject, specifically some DC Comics material.
- First: The Blue Lantern Corps. In DC Comics the color blue is associated with Hope, the titular Blue Lantern Corps wield this power as a weapon through their rings. Although it is powerful on its own, able to shoot lasers and generate shields and such, it is infinitely more powerful when near a Green Lantern Ring. Why? Simply put, hope is nothing without the willpower to act upon it.
- Secondly: The Flash. In DC Comics The Flash is a title associated with a number of heroes whose common power is the ability to move quickly by tapping into a fundamental force known as The Speed Force. For this blog we’ll be focusing on Barry Allen and Wally West, the two most popular individuals to hold this title.
So, now that we’ve got that out of the way, lets jump into the real purpose of this blog: Some of the Core parts of my personality, hope, kindness, and illness.
I am the first to admit, I have been an absolute bastard in the past. But, I would like to pin 80% of the blame on my mental illness. I was and continue to be mentally ill (Bipolar Type 2, General Anxiety Disorder, and Panic Disorder), and it affects my every decision. Lately I’ve got a handle on it, but for a long time I did not and it affected my decisions to larger degree. So for that, I apologize. I do not however wish I was without this illness, for that which doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, and after the hells I’ve been through I’ve become pretty damn strong.
The Blue Lantern motto is “All Will Be Well” Something I have to hold onto for dear life some days. I have to believe that things will get better when I’m at my darkest. To overcome fear and depression and exhaustion, I NEED hope.
Lately I’ve been striving to be a kinder individual. As previously mentioned I could be quite mean before, and I hope to equal the karmic balance by being kind at this point in my life. My entire philosophy behind this is that everything is connected, and that by putting out positive energy and initially causing myself negatives, eventually an equal amount of positive energy will find its way back to me when I need it most.
Bringing it All Together
Something that greatly inspired me is an episode from the TV Show Justice League Unlimited: Season 3 Episode 5, Flash and Substance. In this episode, a number of The Flash’s Rogues team up to take him down on Flash Appreciation Day. Throughout the episode, The Flash is taunted by Batman and Orion for his goofy and aloof methods, which are in strict contrast to the brutality and fear used by them. The Flash brushes off these jabs, and at one point steps between these heroes and one of The Rogues so that he can try a gentler way. He sits down and talks to the guy, asks him if he’s off his medication again, and gets the information they need. But, only when he’s certain that the villain is safe does he leave him alone, leading to this scene:
That is rad as fuck.
I spent much of my life in the position similar to that of The Trickster, the villain in the above panels. Depression is a bitch, so you lash out. To have someone reach out to you like that means the world to you. I was lucky and had people that reached out to me, but others aren’t so lucky. So, ever since I started turning my life around I’ve been trying to be more like those super heroes I idolized as a child. Today, I spread the flames of Hope as best I can.
Some people have mantras they recite when they need strength. Myself, I remember a paraphrased version of the blue lantern oath:
In fearful day, in raging night,
With strong hearts full, our souls ignite,
When all seems lost in the Dark of Night,
Look to the stars– For hope burns bright!